Action or Protection?

Today is an exercise in staying centered. I have a new roof being installed, so there is a great deal of noise and strangers in my yard. I noticed that I started to come out of myself and started trying to mentally fix the situation when there was nothing to fix. I also noticed that my son began to put up shields against the noise, headphones, and movies to block out sound, staying close to people who feel safe. As I try to settle myself and stay present, I reassure my heart that I am safe and strong, and I begin to build a shield of my own, just like my son.

My calendar said to look to black tourmaline for guidance. Black tourmaline transmutates energy and I find that really helpful today. I am trying to turn chaotic energy into calm. This day is full of progress, deliberate choices toward nurturing myself. I also see how far I have come since I don't feel responsible for making everyone else in the house comfortable. I always help where I can, but carrying the weight of everyone else is not my burden, and I am not feeling it today.

It seems that I would rather take action than ground, but part of taking care of myself is learning to ground first. Sodalite says that you bring yourself to active calm. I love that because that doesn't make me feel trapped but stabilized. I am picturing a kung fu warrior in a meditative pose. Her eyes snap open with a fire in them that tells the onlooker she is not to be messed with. She is in touch with her core and knows when to attack and when to deflect. She leans on her friends when she needs to shut emergency mode off. The cycle remains. As I have given the tools I wish I had to the next generation, they bring help back to me. It's a beautiful thing.