Finding My Voice

My emotions seem to be out of balance this morning...not that I have a healthy idea of what they should be like. My emotional parameters are based on a world from seventy-five or more years ago, thanks to my parents. My intuition and knowledge tell me that I need to make room for myself, but what goes on in my heart seems so unacceptable to others.

As I try to soothe my inner turmoil, I turn to a calming habit of shuffling my cards and choosing one. I've felt a connection to the sky lately, so I chose my bird deck. The card is Yellow Warbler. Warblers are associated with the voice, and the yellow with celebrating joy. How am I supposed to celebrate or enjoy anything with so much upheaval inside? Ah, I forgot the voice part. Learning to use my voice will nurture joy. Now, how to accomplish that?

"You can be kind and call out mistreatment.

You can be kind and fight against injustice.

You can be kind and refuse to tolerate disrespect.

You can be kind with a protective temperament.

You can be kind and make your boundaries known.

You can be kind and hostile when needed.

You can be kind and full of fire.

Kindness isn't only a gentle, agreeable whisper that fearfully accepts anything and everything. Kindness can be a force that arises with harshness to protect yourself and the ones you love. Kindness is about doing what is right, even if it disrupts external perception. Especially if.

A kind spirit is not a free pass to be treated like crap."

-Samira Vivette

from her book, The Villain's Crown

When I read this, it was like a guide; just what I needed.