Mixing Colors

Yesterday was a very productive day. A lot of bigger chores were done, so why do I feel conflicted? In the spirit of healing, I paused to analyze. I notice that when I am at my maximum productivity, I lose connection with my spiritual self. Does that mean I have to be one or the other? I don't think so. The two parts of me should be able to share the same space. Now that I think of it, I have already been trying to unite the two. For most of my life, I have given dominance to productivity over nurturing, and I have been trying to take one choice at a time toward less action and more rest. That may be the recipe for bringing both sides together.

The same type of questions have been floating around in my mind on days when I feel more connected to myself. This year is the year of the fire horse, so why does my mind keep turning toward water? A correlation came to me in the form of morning reading. It takes volcanic action underneath the ocean to create an island. Fire balanced with water creates solidarity. That seems like a great process to emulate in daily life. To be honest, I have lived so much of my life trying to grow in poor conditions and blooming anyway, that I neglect myself because that is what I am used to. I have learned so well to survive in drought and through fire that I forget to hydrate when I no longer have to survive. I am allowed to flourish now. Time for more change.

A couple of days ago, I was watching an old episode of the Monk show, and he was trying to learn some art but couldn't bring himself to mix the colors. It's supposed to be humorous, but I resonate with those idiosyncrasies. It is really a struggle to blend life together when you are a person who organizes every thought and detail. However, learning to blend those different aspects into new colors is a beautiful thing. It takes courage and effort, but also much-needed regrouping. Sometimes you need to clean the palette and start with the basic colors again. If I mix the colors of fire and water together, red and blue, what do I get? Purple! Well, that happens to be my favorite color. Time to make some purple!