Self Defense

I catch myself smiling as I picture a soft glow emanating from me and gently spreading outward to join the light of others. Then, my bubble of warmth begins to warp, and I find that someone else is trying to move me out of my own space by taking it over. Now, I have worked very hard nurturing this bubble so I can stand in my own space, but it is still a fragile existence since it is so new. Without realizing it, I begin to decrease my boundaries, pulling in so the encroaching force doesn't hurt me. My heart tells me to fight back, and fight back is exactly what I do. I tell the person to move back from my space and treat me with respect. Now that person is upset, and I have used a good deal of energy. On top of that, I am fairly sure the person is not interested in respecting my space, and so I ask myself if it was worth it? The answer is very obviously, yes, but having to use that energy daily cannot be a long-term scenario. I will have to find a solution, but for now, I have returned my bubble to a healthy size.

What will I do with the use of energy today? I have a plan to do a lot of self-care.

I already made sure to eat well.

Guan Jing will be first.

Using a pine resin salve recipe from Ally Sands will be next.

Then I will likely do some beading to finish off.

Analytics, Engage! When people learn self-defense in a practical sense, they learn to disengage an aggressive hold and then... strike. In much the same way, mental, emotional, and spiritual defense uses the same technique. Survival hides, but defense takes action. So often, I fall back on survival because I've lived most of my life that way. That I am willing to strike tells me I am making progress. My mantra today, then, is, "Nurture and Defend."